<p><span class="h-card" translate="no"><a href="https://mastodon.social/@whitequark" class="u-url mention">@<span>whitequark</span></a></span> Yeah the anticipation was the real psychological torture for me.</p><p>Constant pain from an injury or surgical wound or something? It's bad, but it's constant and I know it's there and I can kinda dissociate from it a bit.</p><p>But when you have saliva slowly building up in your mouth, or you just took a bite of food, and you know you have to swallow it, but you know it's going to hurt like hell to do so... different story. I found myself taking several seconds to work up the gumption to swallow and I'd still jerk a bit trying to involuntarily pull away from the pain.</p>
